The State of Me

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I overslept

I forgot my meds

I broke a mug

And hid the shards under other trash

I didn’t want you to see

The shattered cup

Or the state of me

I fed the cat

I left for work

I cried on the drive

And dried my eyes before getting out

I didn’t want you to see

My silent struggle

Or the state of me.

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