In My Head

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I spent the morning in my head

Reliving my recent failures

Real or imagined 

Vital or insignificant

Then languishing in my grey mood

Listening to the forbidden whispers

Remind me that I am to blame

It is all on me

It is all my fault

Then preparing for the day

Making a plan

Poking holes in the plan

Reinforcing the plan

Let’s see if it holds up

Let’s see if today is a good day.

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