Heavyweight

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It grew quicker than I could have imagined

It started small and manageable

I should have dealt with it then

I should have addressed it, and ended it

It has grown large now, heavy

Its mass increases more the longer I wait

I have waited so long that I can no longer lift it off me

So now it loiters, taking up more and more of my life

Compressing my chest, taunting me, 

I am powerless to solve this myself

No help is coming

Soon I will be crushed

Soon I will be killed

Under the weight of this neglected monstrosity.

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